Hey @AuntGlow
Im not feeling as sick at the moment and my headache has eased.
The start of my shift was absolutely horrible. I nearly called up and went home but there is way too many roo’s of a night. My head just wasn’t in it. I lost control of it. Meds and all. After we had dinner I felt a little better and the rest of the shift was sort of ok. The optional 2 hours of over time was ok. I joined in the chats in the two way. One of the guys invited me to join a few of the others for hot chocolate and donuts. I decided I should go as I always say no. The donuts were awesome! It was nice to be included. We didn’t stay very long but at least I went. That was massive for me.
I’m noticing a lot more now I know what I’m looking for. I now know what over stimulated looks like and we I feel what I feel I know what it is now. I don’t think that makes any sense. But being at work for so long around so many people, even though I’m in the truck in my own. I’ve been assigned all my meal breaks with others where previously I had some breaks on my own.
I notice when the meds are wearing off. There is such a difference between when they are active and when they aren’t. Which is also why I’m noticing more. I now know what ‘normal’ feels like.
There has been some big feels and yesterday afternoon and last night were really hard. I’ve been doing so well recently and I feel like I’m falling backwards and rapidly.
