Need to vent

[BlueBay]

Another disruptive night 

mortgage rate has just been announced gone up 

Petrol is so expensive 

food fruit and veggies prices are crazy

im not sure I will cope with this 

can’t afford much food anymore 

trying to sell our home is so hard now 

been on market since March snd not one offer 

I feel like giving up on everything 

Life seems very bleak 

there’s no positives at the moment 

[Former-Member]

Heya @BlueBay 

Thank you for sharing these struggles, I know you're not alone in them at all. It's not fair that it's happening this way. Me and all the forums members are sitting with you ❤️ 

When these things pile up, it can be hard to see the good things. What are some of the important things in your life from your safety plan? Or some things you can do to distract yourself?

Before I go any further, I just wanted to share these numbers just in case you need them for some crisis support

• Lifeline: 13 11 14
• Suicide callback: 1300 659 467 

I've also been going through the Social Spaces to distract myself too. Are there any you haven't been to yet? Click here for the thread Looking for a space to connect with others? Find a list of discussions in 'Social Spaces' here 

Sitting with you ❤️ 

TuxedoCat

[BlueBay]

Thank you @Former-Member 

at the moment I’m in “overdrive” mentally trying to work things out 

but trouble is - I can’t 

I can’t see anything good come out if this right now 

the uncertainty is difficult to sit with 

I get so scared that we’ll lose our house unless we sell soon 

I never thought that at my age I would be struggling with life so much 

I’m trying to knit while tv is on 

[Former-Member]

@BlueBay Knitting while watching tv is something I also do to keep my mind busy. Something we have in common! ❤️ What are you knitting at the moment? You could share it in Craft Corner?

I'm currently knitting a jumper but the yarn is so fine and the needles are only size 4. It's taking a long time and I keep making mistakes. Maybe next time I'll knit something with bigger needles!  🧶

Life certainly throws a lot at us. But we're here with you ❤️ 

[BlueBay]

hi @Former-Member 

I’m knitting myself a scarf. Very pale cream. I like to knit with big needles and chunky wool so it grows quickly. Always knitting for others but never me. 

i knitted a beautiful fluffy grey scarf for my psych and gave it to her a few weeks ago. She loved it.  

once finished I’ll post a picture on craft section. 

[Former-Member]

I would LOVE to see a picture when you're ready to share it @BlueBay, it sounds so beautiful. And it's such a special way to show your appreciation for other people. ❤️ 

[BlueBay]

hi @Former-Member @hanami @BPDSurvivor @Shaz51 @Emelia8 @Snowie @Eve7 and others following 

I’m not good today. Went to first outpatient hospital group therapy. It’s dbt which is just what I need. 
after group I bumped into yoga teacher and broke down. I couldn’t stop crying. 
so much stress 

so much pressure 

not sleeping etc etc etc

she ended up seeing the psychologist who took group therapy snd she spoke to me. She also filled out paperwork that she keeps reg my diagnosis, my day to day etc. 

im feeling really really horrible overwhelmed and emotional as well as “I can’t be bothered with life anymore” thought. 
laying on my bed staring at space is all I can do. 

[BlueBay]

I want the world to shut 

I need calm in my head 

but it’s not going to happen

i want to shut the world out of my mind 

im desperate for sleep 

I don’t know what I want 

[tyme]

A hug?

Big hug to you @BlueBay .

Sometimes things can be so overwhelming that all you know is that you don’t know. I’ve experienced that many times. It’s hard to sit in this “not-knowing” stance sometimes, but maybe that’s all your body needs for now. It’s okay not to know.

Sitting with you at this time 

tyme

[grayhorn]

@BlueBay 

Hi there , I want to say my very dear friend, but do I have the right? I’ve been following your thread for a few years now while my own unraveling occurred. You helped me loose the stigma of a MH diagnosis, you helped me so much. 

Our early learning sets a mould we have to break. In between the panic and the heartache, love yourself. We do. We love you.  You’re a bright star on a dark night.