good morning my beautiful friends @Owlunar @Shaz51 @Emelia8 @HenryX @MDT @oceangirl @Snowie @Anastasia @Eve7 andn others i have forgotten
this morning i have a 7am doctors appt. i know it's early but they open at 7 so i prefer early. My doctor made a comment last week to me that 'l had frightened him when i first met him' - but he never went into detail as we were in the nurses rooms changing my bandage. So as it's been on my mind since last week i am going to ask him if he can explain. I just want to know why and how i frightened him as it would never ever be my intention to do that to anyone. i am also giving him my very first art canvas and the colours are the colours of his clinic and logo, i hope he likes it.
Then my daughter is dropping off little A to kinda at 8.30 - 11.00am and she and I will go for a long walk and coffee down the beach. lots of talking!!!
This afternoon I have a 2pm psych appt which i can't wait for. I want to tell her about my craft taking off and selling some items. I know she will be pleased to hear about that, as she has been harping at me to get it online to start selling for weeks. so finall i have done that!!
also want to let my psych know about my questionnare results from my psychologists last week and how i reacted badly to the results.
just so you all know - i haven't called my mum for 4 days now. i have a feeling she may call this morning. You know, the more i think about what my psychologist told me last week the more i think he could be right - when my parents came to the front door and after a few minutes of them telling me they are not coming for xmas, my dad turned around and walked back inside. he left without saying goodbye. that was a big shock for me, he has never done that before.
my psychologist said that maybe he was upset because he may have wanted to come to my house but because my mum said no they are not coming he couldn't handle it so he walked away upset. the more i think of this he could be right. my mum is such a cow. a big cow!!
yesterday we went to the cemetery to my hubby's parents. it is 2 yrs since his mum passed away and because of Covid we couldn't go. we got there and i broke down, tears flowing, i just couldn't hold the tears back. i was thinking how nice they were, they never interferred in our lives, so different to my parents. they would have adored their great granddaughter so so much. they would have showered her with so much love and gifts. so so different to my parents. but that is life. you can't change it.
it's funny with kids, little A asked her nonno last week where are his parents because she hasn't met them yet - we explained they were very sick and old and died, they went to heaven. and that they love her very much. she then replied 'will i see them one day' - oh by then i started to cry. i told her yes one day. she turned to me and said 'nonna why are you crying, i can give you give you a hug' and she did a big tight hug. she is the best. i don't know where all those questions came from, i guess at 4 yrs old they start to think and ask.
she is such a sweet little soul.
more canvas art work today, i am going to use bright colours today - orange, yellow, red, purple, white. sew 2 blankets for my friend who has purchased them. and organise dinner in between.
hope everyone is doing ok, and have a nice day xxxxoooo
