My special place

[Snowie]

It's not that I don't want to talk about it @Ru-bee but it's like it is a taboo topic on here. It's not like I'm the first one to bring it up either. It just makes you feel insignificant. Might as well not be here.

OK try to keep it recovery focused

I rang but that didn't help, I even journalled my thoughts

[Ru-bee]

I hear you @Snowie is it something you need to chat to us about over email? 

Good on you for making the call and journalling, even if it hasn't helped this time 

[Snowie]

Thanks @Ru-bee but it's ok. It's just making me more upset and it won't change a thing.

I'm sure you have bigger things to worry about anyway. 

As I said it's already done. I just worry that it will be more than just me that is affected.

I probably need to leave and ring

[Ru-bee]

That's okay @Snowie you do what you need to take care of yourself right now 💜

[tyme]

Hey @Snowie , hope you're okay.

[Bow]

*gently opening the door and throwing a whole big pile of squishy hugs in for you and then quickly closing the door so they don’t escape*

hope you are ok?

[AuntGlow]

Good evening @Snowie 🫶

Those strategies definitely sound like an important part of the recipe! I think it's really positive that you know how to bring yourself back. 

Ah, I see! I can imagine that makes seeing mum even more tough? Masking is so exhausting... 

Tatts!! Okay, this makes you immediately badass. 💪🤩

Hmm, what would an ideal friendship look like for you? And how do you imagine you'd meet someone like that?

Oh my goodness!! That's so sweet. What do you love about H so much? 🥹

[Snowie]

Thanks @Bow @tyme for the thoughts 💗

[Snowie]

Wish I could support posts @AuntGlow it's just not working for me

It's taken a long time to work out what strategies work for me. Even now they can change. I do think it is something that can constantly change depending on what is happening, why it has happened and how far into the dissociation I am. I don't think it is something that is set in concrete.

My mum can be quite critical of me. I guess it is something I have just learnt to live with.

Hehe, I have a number of tatts and a full sleeve. I have been looking for inspiration for my next one too. They all have their own meaning behind them.

I have had friendships in the past, I'm just not good at keeping them. I don't blame them though, it is normally me that steps away. I can get very uncomfortable around others. I do have acquaintances, just no real friends. They are normally H's friends partners.

I love that H is honest no matter what. He will always say it how it is. He has also stood next to me through all my MH issues, where others would have run in the opposite direction.

[Bow]

Dear @Snowie  i hope your day has been ok. Know you were seeing your mum today. I hope she was kind to you. Always know what you mean to me. Your always kind and got a listening ear. I hope things get better for you, you deserve it 💜