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[AuntGlow]

Happy Sunday, lovely! @Snowie 

Knowing we aren't alone is one of the most helpful things in the world, so yes, I think that is important - especially around this time of year. 

How are things today and have you managed to go through more of mum's stuff? 💛

[Bow]

💜 @Snowie  thinking of you heaps the last week. I hope you are ok 💜

[Eve7]

Dear friend @Snowie I hope your pdoc appointment was helpful today.

Sending lots of love to you 💜🩵💜🩵💜

[Snowie]

Thanks @Eve7 @Bow @AuntGlow 

I'm sorry I've been absent.

Am home. I don't think I'm allowed to say anymore.

Thanks for thinking of me

[AuntGlow]

I hope you are doing okay, lovely. And if you aren't, know that you can still share what you are going through - we are here to hold space. We just need to know how we can help. @Snowie 🥰

[Snowie]

Honestly, I am not doing well @AuntGlow I did something that I am paying for now, I went back on my word, I've let people down, my Mum is getting worse (she couldn't remember her last name), my MIL is back in hospital.

Things are falling apart and it's like I am looking in from the outside. 

My SI is higher than it has been for quite awhile. 

I've been trying to keep it together but failed big time.

I don't know what you can do to help.

I have been trying to help myself. I started a jigsaw yesterday, I've been journalling quite a bit, I'm using smelling oils and ice to try and stay present. 

I had psych (telehealth) and pdoc (phone) both today. My pdoc knew everything anyway.

[tyme]

Hey @Snowie ,

I'm sorry to hear that things have not been good for you. I hear the stress your mum's deterioration is having on you.

At the same time, I'm glad you are working on a few jigsaws.

Is your hubby home?

[Snowie]

Thanks @tyme 

I have hubby home with me. We are just watching tv.

Will most likely be an early night again.

Whilst today has been good that I could speak to my psych and pdoc, it has also taken lots out of me. I know they say that honesty is the best, but it can be very painful.

[Snowie]

Sometimes that space just isn't there

I'm not sure why I let my thoughts escape

Thanks anyway