I can’t cope

[Captain24]

Thanks @Ru-bee.

It all goes too fast for me to keep up as well. When my life is nothing I’ve really got nothing to talk about and sometimes when I read a long I find some stuff triggering. I feel like a useless member. I really only feel safe in my space. On here and in life

[Captain24]

Feeling a little alone today. I’ve tried reaching out and no one has responded. I keep checking my messages and nothing. It’s a little lonely. My own fault though. I’m not worth anyone getting back to me

[Ru-bee]

Here with you @Captain24 

Some of the chats on here do go really quickly, I can relate to that. I just try to focus on responding to the messages I can and tell myself it's okay if I'm not keeping up with the latest messages that might have come through in the meantime.

How was yesterday with the 3 dogs? Did they let you get any rest or were they running circles around you all afternoon?

[Captain24]

No rest.. Keiko and Jett just run wild and they just jump all over you like you’re not there. They did it to Pix too so I had to pull Pix away as she was attacking them! @Ru-bee. It was a full

on afternoon but they did settle down. 

They were all good overnight and this morning so that was good. Pix did attack Keiko at one stage so I had to separate them. 

Im down to just my two now. Both are tired so that’s good. 

Did you end up doing the shower? 

[Ru-bee]

Oh Pix! 😂 That makes me laugh @Captain24 Sounds like they had a very eventful time, no wonder they're tired now!

No I didn't tackle the shower yet 😫 I was thinking about it this morning and trying to work out when I'll actually do it, I've just been really exhausted this past week and have been putting my energy into work. Luckily I should be able to sleep in for the next few days and I've seen my GP and gotten some iron supplements so hopefully more energy is just around the corner! Trying to be gentle with myself in the meantime, I'll get to it when I can

[Captain24]

Pix is a bit of a firecracker so she lets them know when she isn’t happy! @Ru-bee 

Im sorry you have been tired. Have you not been sleeping well or working too hard? 

The bathroom can wait. It’s not going anywhere. I only did it as I’m on a cleaning frenzy. Not that you can tell today. I’ve done nothing today other than clean the kitchen, a load of washing and out the dishwasher on. I haven’t even unpacked it. 

How’s Toby? 

[Ru-bee]

@Captain24 I love hearing about Pix's antics 😂 I think as a people pleaser I always love hearing stories about anyone who doesn't take any sh*t, including pets haha

I think it's been a combo of both! Mainly just that I've been doing early mornings but thankfully I'm reverting back to my usual schedule now so I think as soon as I catch up on my sleep I'll be okay

I just want to point out how supportive and kind you're being to me right now. I know it's easy to miss these things or to overlook them, but you are very kind and supportive on here.

Toby's good, although I have't been able to take him for a walk in a few days. I think I'll take him out tomorrow before work, it'll be good for me to get out and walk too

[Captain24]

I’m a people pleaser too and she certainly isn’t. She definitely has her own mind. Also if she wants a pat and you aren’t giving her one she throws her body around like a tantrum! @Ru-bee. Jetts just a shit and bites people’s ankles and me if I disturb him especially while he has a bone. 

I hope being able to sleep in helps. I know it’s hard when you don’t sleep well. A change in routine also makes things a little more difficult. Hopefully it all works out for you when you get some normality back. 

Im glad he is good. I’m sure he will live getting out. I should really walk my two but it’s just finding the energy  and the risk of seeing people. 

I have a pounding headache again. 😢 

[Ru-bee]

Oh sorry to hear about the headache @Captain24 it's horrible when they won't go away. Do you have any idea where the headaches are coming from?

[Captain24]

I googled the new meds that I started and the side effects are headaches, nausea, vomiting and diarrhoea! @Ru-bee. The Pdoc said they would help me sleep and that they were for high blood pressure. But reading they are used for ADHD also.