I can’t cope

[Captain24]

Oh no.. more notes! @tyme. It gets like that though. Once one thing is done more follows 

If they are big ones that you’ve been putting off than it’s ok to just do one and remove that whole sticky note.

Thats ok.. I get that you are busy and so much to sort for the new mods. 

I’m just going to aim small and just dust the living room and maybe clean the windows. I think it’s to hard to do much with 3 dogs. 

Pix is doing well. I feel like I’m hungover but considering that I don’t drink, that’s not what it is. I have kept everything down so far. 

I think I’m going through the withdrawal. You were right last night. Knowing it doesn’t make it any easier though! The thoughts are still the same

[tyme]

Yes! More notes. But I think the notes are also a comfort because I can visually tick them off the list and be okay with that. It's when my brain is messy that I can't cope. @Captain24 

As for starting small tomorrow, it's a good idea. Having 3 dogs is having 3 needy babies with you! So if you aim for only a few things, at least you know the goal is achieveable.

I'm glad to hear that Pix is so much better. What a relief!

And with the withdrawals, I think it's good to know that it's not because you are doing anything 'wrong' and it's about waiting it out.

Erghhh... that's sorta putting me off considering going ahead with tapering! I think I'll put it on hold.

[Captain24]

That’s why I write notes. So I can tick them off and see what I have done and what needs to be done. If it’s just in my head I lose control and it gets all messy. @tyme. Maybe it’s adhd

I need to try and look after myself. If I have a slow day then I need to allow myself that. It’ll be a lot of work looking after the dogs. An extra one makes so much difference. 

It does make it a little easier in the fact that I know it’s withdrawal and not my fault. It doesn’t change the headspace though. But at the same time I know it’ll pass. 

It’s hard to come off. I’ve sometimes reduced in a week and sometimes over two weeks and the withdrawal was the same. Not sure if your dose but if you do you need to take it extremely slowly and be strong enough. 

[Captain24]

 

[tyme]

What a life @Captain24 🙂 They are soooo loved!

Anyway, I'm have to head off and GSD!

So much to do!

Why was sleep ever invented? I'd get so much more done if I didn't need to sleep!

[Captain24]

Go GSD @tyme and try and get some sleep. It’s important too. Not enough sleep won’t help the procrastination! 

Talk soon. 

[Captain24]

After finishing my medication I started on a new one. I googled it last night. It’s for high blood pressure but is used for ADHD. Turns out the side effects are a headache, nausea, vomiting and diarrhoea! Explains a lot! Plus it needs to be taken with food. That’s why I’m extra sick after taking it as I take it before bed. 

Just know wondering how long the side effects take to lessen. 

[Captain24]

Also.. mum just called and said I can leave a day earlier for holidays! I’m a little excited as now I don’t have to leave a 6 in the morning and rush there. I can leave at 8 and take my time plus there will be less traffic through the mountains! 

So looking forward to going away! 

[Captain24]

Sometimes I wish I had the confidence and ability to join chats. I can’t do small talk and don’t want to bother anyone. Im not very good at being supportive either. Im not a good person

[Ru-bee]

Well I always feel that you're supportive when I speak to you @Captain24 

I was so nervous to join in on chats here when I first started, I do still feel a bit nervous even now and this is my job! But everyone's always so lovely and welcoming when I do chat