not coping

[tyme]

Hey @outlander , thank you for sharing. At this point, any job, any change might feel like a break and a holiday for you, right?

You have been through so much, and I really hope things improve. Once again, I'm sorry for the disappointing psych appointment/therapy.

[outlander]

pretty much @tyme i had applied to coles and woolies too but i decided not to go through with them as ive heard alot of bad things working in my area and alot of the cliques and i dont want anymore of that.

[tyme]

Are you in a smaller rural area @outlander ? Is that why there are cliques?

Knowing what I know of you, I don't feel working at coles and woollies will be fulfilling to you -  but I guess it's just a job? A job to pay the bills? (Correct me if I'm wrong).

Do what's right for you. We are here to support you.

Hugs.

[outlander]

no but its sort of like everyone grew up in these areas. the people i went to school with are some of the 'older' people and then you have those that are younger who also all sort of go to the same school etc. ive heard it from a few people its not the best but it was just a job really. just something to pay the bills, do something different. but knowing me i probably would get bored and annoyed quick and want to leave.
i want to work with people but my own health- mentally and physically is just making it hard and getting declined by disability companies because i have a disability is hard to hear. they wont admit to it but that is the only thing holding me back because i have a few limitations. they want people to have full avaliability and full capabilities.
the disability work force is not really designed to accept people with disabilities who want to work i suppose.

[tyme]

Fair enough. Makes sense about wanting to work with those with mental health @outlander 

I wonder if peer work is an avenue you can go down where you use your own lived experience of both physical and mental health to encourage others?

[outlander]

im already in a peer working company @tyme which is why its weird its not working out for me. its not that i dont like it but they always match me with the harder or more behavioural clients which i guess is ok cause i dont get as 'bored' but they also match me to more elderly that dont really need peer support and just need abit of housework done or put me with people that i have limitations with like i cant take them for as many shifts etc because longer days mean they need wheelchairs etc and i cant do that.
i wanted to get more into peer support but in this industry just seems to be disability but paid less.

[tyme]

Fair enough @outlander . I really hope you find what works for you. Takes a bit of trial and error to find what's best I guess.

At least you are getting up and trialling places. We need to acknowledge and give you credit for that. It takes a lot of effort to do this, especially when you don't feel well.

[outlander]

its quite tricky though @tyme
i didnt realise but if im with registered ndis companies when they do their ndis checks they can see how many companies ive been with or enquired with so it doesnt look good. in just this last 2 years there would be around 6 companies on there and would look suspicious probably so doesnt help with my applications.


if i could be supported financially by family like someone taking me in and i could rest it would be better. i would still work but atm im working some doubles just to make ends meet or to afford getting some sort of support r pay for appointments

[tyme]

Oh, I didn't know they check past NDIS orgs you've been connected with. That's interesting. @outlander 

I can hear how hard it is to work doubles just to scrape through. WOULD you family take you in? Do they even know you are struggling?

[outlander]

neither did i until i was chatting to one of my employers today just chatting about ndis and she told me that. they can also check if theres any stikes against your name as well. @tyme

no they wouldnt and i wouldnt stand being around them either. if i could get 24/7 sil then i would consider that and go on disability but i wont ever get that so its unlikely.