Need to vent

[Emelia8]

Yes @BlueBay I just read your previous post.  I can totally understand your concerns and anxiety around the situation of selling your home.  Or not selling your home,  as its looking could be the case. That must be heartbreaking for you.  It was such a huge decision to put your much loved home on the market in the first place. A real roller coaster of emotions are involved here Bluebay.  Selling ones home is one of the BIG stressors people go through in their lives. It is not at all surprising that you are struggling with the whole process of deciding to sell,  open house,  waiting for offers which havent come,  not knowing where you stand regarding buying a new home,  etc.  Phew ..  all so stressful. Let alone the financial situation.  I really feel for you @BlueBay . But that isnt helping you is it.  What will?   Right now,  you sound close to panic.  Who is home with you?  Can you take some nice slow deep calming breaths.  Nothing bad is going to happen today.  In fact,  the chances are that nothing bad is going to happen at all. Seeming disaster will be averted,  just wait and see.  So take those calming breaths and come have that cuppa with me.  Please? ♥

[BlueBay]

Oh I’m crying @Emelia8 

I’m glad I have you here. 
it’s so hard at the moment 

I’m going to go and make a cup of tea and sit with you 

I get so scared of the unknown @Emelia8 

I can’t even talk to the family about my panic state 

I just can’t 

[Emelia8]

I get scared of the unknown too @BlueBay so I can commiserate with you on that score.  And yes I can understand you not wanting to talk to family members about your state of panic over whats going on right now.  Goodness,  I didnt even tell any of my family that I was in hospital for over 3 weeks last time I was in the MH ward.  Not even sure why exactly.  Combination I think ... not wanting to worry anyone,  not wanting to admit to weakness.  

Sorry I disappeared for a while.  I finished my cuppa and then went and changed out of my gym gear into something warmer.

Really need to go now and get something healthy for dinner.  Some of my blood test results from my GP today were somewhat concerning. What are you doing for dinner? 

Emelia 💖

[BlueBay]

Just saw your post @Emelia8 

we had sausages in bread and chips. 

I’m glad you’re making something for dinner. Not like me!!

i think I’ll go and try the online chat. 

thank you for your support. Xxxxx

still scared 

[BlueBay]

@Emelia8 @Former-Member 

i am so exhausted, my brain is tired from thinking, stressing and worrying

i feel i need a break

a break away from life

but what does that even mean

do i run each time i face difficult situations

but my mind and body can't take it anymore

i wish i could go away forever

then there would be nothing to worry about 

[Eve7]

I’m hearing you @BlueBay and sitting with you now.

This will pass….

💙💙💙💙💙

[BlueBay]

thank you lovely friend @Eve7 xxxx

[tyme]

Hi @BlueBay ,

Did you manage to get through to webchat?

Also, have you checked out our new guided service? It's so exciting for SANE and for participants who are eligible.

Hugs to you tonight @BlueBay .

Sitting with you and thinking of you,

tyme

[grayhorn]

@BlueBay 

I agree with Rhye @BlueBay, so much of what’s happening is not in your control. Outside factors impacting your life. It’s not your fault. Please don’t take responsibility for situations and events you haven’t caused. I liked the sound of your dinner, that’s you showing love is a verb I hope you have a better night. One loving breath at a time. 🫖

[BlueBay]

Hi @tyme I did manage online chat which helped a tiny bit. 

but today - I can’t deal with the uncertainty 

I can’t do this anymore