Hi @Paperdaisy im just coping. I managed to speak to my psych earlier. Told her all my concerns. She understands and cares about me and says she knows the stressors are making things worse.
im seeing her next week before she goes on annual leave for 3 weeks.
im so unmotivated I just don’t want to move from my bed. The weather is horrible and it’s cold.
so bed is where I’m staying. Although my psych encouraged me to go for a walk.
she wants me to try to give hubby a hug as this will improve our relationship. I told her if I did he would think I want to have sex. But she indicated no just one small step with a hug. She also wants to meet hubby so we can all have a discussion about relationships snd intimacy. I told her today that I can’t remember the last time we hugged. That’s pretty bad. 😥😥
thanks @Eve7 for the hugs last night.
thanks everyone for all your support.
@Snowie @grayhorn @tyme @Shaz51 @Emelia8 @BPDSurvivor
@grayhorn its so hard when I’ve been “conditioned “ a certain way growing up. But it doesn’t mean I can’t change.
i get angry so often. I get emotional all the time. I’m feeling like a lost cause. Like there’s no hope for me at all.
Guilt comes up a lot for me with a lot of our stressors. I blame myself a lot.
