I can’t cope

[Captain24]

Hey @Jynx 

You've missed a lot! 

I went to a mental health support group on Wednesday night! I’m not sure that it’s for me as it’s based on AA and has 12 steps and lots of quotes and lots of readings that everyone says together. It’s actually called ‘Grow’ and is nation wide. I can share that as there is no chance of an anonymity breach. 

My auntie had a complete mental break down. She was suppose to see a psychologist but before the appointment she threw herself on the ground and had a tantrum. Her partner called his sister, she is a nurse and took one look at my auntie and said she need to call 000. My aunties partner said yes please to calling. She is now in a psych ward with a diagnosis of bipolar and adhd. I now know where I get it from! She is in a really bad way and won’t be out for a while. 

How was your break? 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 oh nice!! I do totally get you - sometimes that much structure is needed, but I dunno if the '12 step' vibe is for me. Maybe go for a few more rounds and see if it grows on you? Oh haha accidental pun 😜 I will add italics. Teehee! 

Wow, that's hectic - but glad that she is getting support and you don't have to sit around waiting for a dreaded phone call! I hope she gets what she needs 🤞

It was okay, unfortunately my grandmother passed just before so I spent most of my time off in hermit-mode. But I did get some nature-walks in and stuff, so that was good 😊

[Captain24]

Yeah. I don’t think it’s my thing but I can’t judge it after one meeting. @Jynx. I’ll go this Wednesday and see and then the next 2 Wednesdays I’ll be at work so I’ll see what happens after that. 

Love the pun!!! 

Mum told her I was on nightshift but didn’t say when I finished. Now I won’t get that call!! I even talked to my psych about it and she didn’t want me to answer but said that because of who I am I will answer but it was only to be a one and done call! Don’t have to worry now! There’s family drama happening around it. One of her sisters is crying about it and demanding to go and see her. They fight like cat and dog and see is the last person my auntie needs as she will make it all about herself. My auntie just needs to be left alone to recover and process what is happening. Her partner did give the hospital mums name and another sisters name as contacts so they can call and support her. 

Im so sorry about your Grandma. Was she unwell? How are you going with it? 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 perseverance!! We love to see it!! 

Oh noooo not the family drama! Do you get pulled in or do you tend to keep firm boundaries around it all? 

She was really old.... lol like 95 or something. She lost her husband a couple years ago and then started to decline - not surprised. People can in fact die of a broken heart - and it was heart failure in the end. I have had a few lil teary arvos but I am going okay otherwise 💜

[Captain24]

Nah.. I’m not involved it’s mums problem but it’s dads family! @Jynx. I’m staying right away from it. 

My pop died of a broken heart so I get it. He was only 79. 

It’s hard when we lose a loved one. It affects everyone differently. Just know I’m thinking of you. 


Your nature walks reminded me of something. I spent a day out with mum while I was off work. 

  

  

 a friend while we were having lunch! 

[AuntGlow]

It sounds like it was quite overwhelming for you... do you think you actually couldn't get anything right or was your mind being a little tough on you? @Captain24 

Wow, that sounds like a really meaningful and empowering event. How did it feel to speak about your mental health journey one year? 

Honestly, it sounds so interesting - what was your biggest take away?

That's so okay! I think even acknowledging that the chat was pleasant is a win. 

Telling her this would help her to help you, you know? So I think being transparent is a really good idea!

[Captain24]

No I couldn’t do it right @AuntGlow. I couldn’t get the tip head right and the dirt wasn’t going over like it should. I had to have a couple of goes to back up right and still got it wrong. I apologised to the dump dozer at crib but he was ok about it. Others wouldn’t have been. 

It was really good to talk about it. I was pretty open in it. The room was silent when I was speaking. Apparently it was well worded and I spoke well. I did email HR with what I had written before I did the talk. 

Today I got a good understanding of the processes plus the micro aggression one was the most beneficial. How to respond if I don’t feel it’s appropriate. 

Im really trying to find good in stuff. So actually talking with someone I didn’t know was a huge step. 
I think I’ll speak to the facilitator as I don’t think I can handle it. I’m hoping she gets the everyone at their own pace thing. 

[Jynx]

Aww thanks @Captain24 that means a lot 💜

I am sorry about your Pop too. It's so hard hey. 

Those pictures are GORGEOUS!! TY for sharing!! Three Sisters? And the cockatoo!! Amazing 😍

[Captain24]

My pop was amazing. I was his favourite grandchild out of 19 of us! @Jynx Him and my nan were very special people and helped a lot of the community especially with alcoholism as pop was the AA leader. 

Yep. We went to Katoomba to scenic world. I’ve never been as I just drive through in my way to somewhere or my way back. I don’t stop. 

[Jynx]

IDK why @Captain24 but 'katoomba scenic world' sounds like a really crappy theme park 🤣

Night hun!! 

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