I can’t cope

[tyme]

Hey @Captain24 , I'm not feeling well. Must have a stomach bug. I've taken today off but thought I'd let people know. Soz.

[Captain24]

I’m sorry @tyme. I really hope you feel better soon. Take care and rest up.

[Captain24]

I’m feeling like I can’t do anything right. I don’t even know what I’ve done. Feeling a little unwelcome. 

[holdinghope5]

What would be helpful right now? 

Are you referring to the post above @Captain24 ?

Would you like an email about your post? We understand that a request was made for moderators to edit your posts as opposed to deleting them. Is this correct? 

[Captain24]

Yes I am @holdinghope5 

I do prefer editing to deleting. I’m glad that has been communicated. I just don’t know what I did wrong. I got in trouble earlier today as well. If you guys would rather I just leave then feel free to let me know and I will

[holdinghope5]

Thank you for raising your concerns @Captain24 

When in a difficult headspace, it is often quite natural to post what is in your mind. We we ask is for members to let the community know they are safe, what you are doing to stay safe or tell the community what support you are looking for on the forums.

We will email you a copy of your previous post and highlight the areas of concern.

Here's the How To thread for your reference How To: Recovery Focused Posting 

We hope you understand that this is not about not wanting you on the forums by any means.

[Captain24]

Thanks @Eve7 

Hope all is well with you. 

Sorry I just saw this 

[Captain24]

This will probably get deleted as I can’t do anything right. 

This is me. Especially the last couple of things they are how I feel on here. 

[rav3n]

hey @Captain24 appreciate you sharing. 

you are absolutely not alone with those thoughts and feelings. 

sometimes we might have high expectations for ourselves and feel like we stuffed up and ruined things, but that's far from the truth. the forums is safe space to learn and grow, we don't hold anything against you or any of the members here! 

please know that us editing/blocking posts is not a sign that you're burdening us. our role as mods requires us to edit posts to meet our guideline, and we've done it soooooo many times with sooooo many members! it's what we do! we know that not everyone will remember our guidelines, especially when they're feeling overwhelmed, so that's why we swoop in and help ya out with the posting. 

i know it can be hard to accept that, especially when our self-talk says otherwise. but i hope you challenge the self-talk and let it know that you are only human, and you deserve to be supported. the community is always here for you, whenever you are ready.

[Captain24]

It wasn’t positive that’s why it got edited. So yes I take it personally and feel not good enough. @rav3n If I can’t be positive then I don’t belong. 

I only belong if everything is sunshine and roses. 

That’s how it felt