I can’t cope

[tyme]

Heya @Captain24 ,

I LOVE the photo of Jett! How cute!

I'm not on today, but I wanted to pop in to say that everything went well yesterday. It was simple and lovely. 

But the kids came home buggered. Then the meltdowns happened. My niece got a VTech laptop so she's super excited about that. She always loves to have her own laptop and sets up a work station with a monitor, keyboard, mouse and phone (none of them work). So yeah, now she has her own 'laptop'.

She was pretty cute. She's the least fussy, but she's the loudest and the fireist.

This morning, I'm:

- working on an assignment

- church

- spend time with the kids

- admin work

And that's it!

You? Only so we can be accountability buds. 

I'm off now but might check in later tonight. Enjoy your day!

[Captain24]

I just posted above with what I have already done! @tyme 

Ok.. accountability buddies it so!!

I have to whipper snipper my back yard and mow until the bins are full! 

Then the afternoon is mine for some Lego 

Im so glad they enjoyed it all and that she got a laptop and can do work too. 

[Captain24]

Hey @tyme 

How did you go? 

Today has been a big day! 

I did the housework including floors

I clean the windows and plantation shutters in the front lounge room 

I dusted the front lounge room properly with mr sheen and moved all the ornaments and photos and cleaned them. 

I’ve done the ironing. 

I did all the edges in my backyard. 

I mowed all of my backyard. (2 hours!) I got halfway through and wanted to give up but I knew you were in my head so I did it all. 

I finished my Lego set

I had a bath

Now I’m sitting and watching a movie! 

I wanted to keep going but my body said no. 

Tomorrow is

Change the bedlinen

Bath the dogs

clean the shower and wash my hair

You??

This is what happens when I’m in the bath. 

And this is Simba

 

[AuntGlow]

Good afternoon @Captain24,

That's okay - I sent you a message rather late! 

I hear you, it's honestly so hard for the nervous system to hold multiple things in one day - especially if we are experiencing dysregulation, so please know you are allowed to prioritise one thing at a time.

(I know I need to)

Wow, that would have been a hefty task. How did you maneuver them around?? 

100%, being physical in the fresh air/sun helps soo much. I am glad you are feeling a sense of accomplishment. I have a lot of tasks to completel re: moving. Very much procrastinating haha 

What will this evening look like for you? ☺️

[Captain24]

I just dragged them out @AuntGlow.

Ive done so much so far while I’m off. My house is starting to come together. 

Today was a big day but I added self care in there. I feel really accomplished. I’m really proud of everything I have done today. Having an accountability buddy helped push me too. 

Im really exhausted now so the rest of the afternoon is movies and tv. Hopefully I’ll be able to keep going tomorrow and not need a rest day. 

Moving is so hard. It’s hard to know where to start. What to pack what to leave out. I struggled when I moved but knowing I was moving into my own home and it was brand new helped me a lot to get rid of shit that I didn’t need. 

[Captain24]

My body hurts so so much. My mind is drifting to places with so much pain. 

[AuntGlow]

It must feel so good having everything come together @Captain24. 

I can see you have had time for Lego too! How lovely. 😻

You should be really proud of your efforts and connection to self-care, that's as important as getting the thing done. Was Tyme your accountability buddy?

Well, it sounds like some TV will allow you to unwind and have more space for tomorrow - you're doing so well with creating balance here.

Absolutely, this feels like a fresh start. I will be moving in with a friend who is a dance therapist, so well-aligned. I think it will allow me to get rid of stuff too. I tend to hang onto clothes too much, in case I need them for costumes haha 

I can see things are feeling a little overwhelming at the moment... is that because you have stopped moving and things are amplified? I wonder what you could do to soften and soothe your mind and body right now? 💛

[Captain24]

Yeah tyme is my accountability buddy and I’m hers. It helps us both get things done. Her words are in my head when I’m doing things and so I push myself to get things done. @AuntGlow 

Im just sitting here waiting for Masterchef to start. I just watched a movie. ‘My year at Oxford’ it was quite good. A few tears. 

I’ve really tried with self care. The bath was beautiful. I should do it more often. 

My next big task is to clean out my walk in. Could take a while! I’ve kept clothes incase I fit into them again. I’ve figured that I won’t ever reduce my size enough. So I’ll send them to a charity shop. It’ll give me more room though. 

It is a fresh start and to have someone in the same wavelength is awesome. I never did well with house mates. In hindsight I can see why. 

Yeah.. no that I’ve stopped. I think too because I’m so tired. I pushed my body beyond its limits today. I need to remember my MH and my age when doing these things.

I don’t know what to do to soothe. I don’t have anything left in me to try. It’s just tv. My back and feet are so sore.  

[Captain24]

@tyme 

If you log in I have a list in a post a couple back. With what I’ve done and what I need a buddy for tomorrow.

Update me with yours if you want

Im so tired and so sore so im going to bed early. 

[AuntGlow]

Aw, I am so glad you have each other. She really is the best. @Captain24 

Ah, what hit you emotionally? It sounds like something really resonated with you.

Honestly, these seemingly small things go so far, don't they? 

It can be really hard to let go of clothing for so many reasons. I have lots of vintage pants that I love, which don't exactly fit right now too. 💛 Sometimes giving to the op-shop and buying something new can be a really lovely 'giving back' feeling. 

100%. I have felt the best living alone, it's always really hard living with others. I am sure my friend and I will have our challenges too!

I get that completely. My brain is very 'all or nothing', so similar things happen to me too... I think balance might be the focus of our week @Captain24!

Allowing yourself to put your feet up and watch TV after all of your hard work is a perfect plan.