Re: How to communicate severity of mental illness to loved ones?
Thanks @tyme. I don't really know what thought-provoking means, the only thought I'd like to provoke is "shit this dude's having a rough time". I'm writing a lot in my posts because that helps me process what I'm feeling.
Tonight's really hard. I think I need to go to sleep super early because I've had this horribly strong realisation that I've given up on everyone in my life, and that makes me want to drink. Sleeping is the only (safe) way I can think to escape the urges. I don't trust that anyone will show up for me, no matter how much I've shown up for them. I can't hope anymore. Tonight so many people are partying and having a good time, and it really hurts. How am I meant to act friendly and nice and agreeable when/if my friends decide to reappear again? I have to work so hard just to hold back from drinking, and I'm completely alone in it. Once I got sober, everyone just expected I would stay that way, that I would quit having a problem. But they don't see the work it takes to stay sober. Only I see it. Only I have to do that work. Only I have to live with myself and somehow hold back.
I can't handle the bad shit that's stacking up. The online transphobic abuse, the slurs, my physiotherapist being suddenly unavailable for over 100 days, my pain worsening... It's just too much. As I write this, I'm in so much physical pain. It hurts so much and I just want it to stop.
I don't really know what I need. Empathy from others who have faced similar stuff? I dunno. I probably need a hug, most of all, but the internet has limits lol
Thought-provoking as in your experiences makes me consider how I can better support people who find themselves in such situations. With you sharing how you feel, it is really an eye-opener.
Please know we are here to support you. The world can be pretty awful sometimes.
Re: How to communicate severity of mental illness to loved ones?
Hey @tyme, just seeing this now. Thanks so much for the support and virtual hug 😊 I hope you're doing okay this morning.
The good news is that someone in my life did reach out to me. They're not able to support me really (not their fault, just the way it is), but the fact that they said hello means something.
